Sunday, December 20, 2009

Dreaming Of LA And Rainbows

I missed the rainbow that stretched across the sky in Hollywood several weeks ago.


 And when I think of my home in Los Angeles, this photo, captured by my friend Chip Latshaw, perfectly illustrates the romanticized vision of LA that I have frozen in my mind for the time being.

Now when I think of downtown LA and Skid Row in particular, I don't generally equate that part of town as being beautiful. In fact- rundown, dirty, sketchy- are a few words that cross my mind.  Yet, this photo is so beautiful and inspiring to me.  Thank you Chip for enlightening my mind to a whole new perspective! I think many true Californians can appreciate this photographed moment.

I am feeling sentimental, yes, as I miss my home in California more than anything.  I am disappointed that I did not move back as I had planned. What I really need is a change of environment and to escape the winter season for a bit. I lack a tremendous amount of inspiration which has been holding me back for the time being and keeping me from really "putting myself out there."

This blog entry is really just a way for me to kick myself in the ass and say, "Kristin! Get a Vitamin D tablet already and eat an orange!! Get over yourself and go play in the snow!" Yes, this season always proves every year to slow down work-wise no matter if I'm on the West Coast or the East Coast.  And every year I have to remind myself that I can't measure my self worth on how much or how little money I make.

And as I worry of missed opportunities in Los Angeles, I realize my reasons for staying in New York far outweigh the reasons for  going back to LA. I got a good start in New York this past year and worked more than I ever did in LA . I figure it can only get better from this point on. And like they say, "Tis greener on the other side." No matter where you are.

So here's a toast  (me holding up my imaginary champagne glass to all those reading this holding up imaginary champagne glasses) for those who feel similar this Holiday season, who wish it could just be over, or feel lonely, or missing someone, etc, or all of the above, to encourage us to embrace the season with Joy and the New Year with hopeful expectations and blessings.

And I am praying that Somewhere Over the Rainbow that "the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true."

Or if I can just find a pot of gold at the end of that rainbow, perhaps behind the Hollywood sign, that would work too.